Wednesday, September 30, 2015

day three : i have an ocean now

i wonder
if you think about things
the way you talk about them

when you say i own a lake
when you call me the queen of bridge mills

do you see it too?


when you first came over
to my house
my
for a too-green-for-you-perhaps-salad dinner
you said, look at your lake
this is your lake

i liked the idea
but i didn't quite believe
it was mine


another day, walking toward yours
look! what a nice lake. it's yours.

you were tossing pouring glopping appreciation into my crossed arms

when i walked back
that night
after walking you just past
woodie's turn in
where we held each other so close one day, many months ago,
i looked at the apartment and house lights
reflected on the lake
and felt it mine



today
as i walked to non-existent work
at 8:18 a.m.
says my phone clock
i looked rightward
over my lake
come ocean
fog
had receded buildings



an ocean
my ocean
i thought
and imagined you next to me

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

day two: my hair from yours

today
i finally moved
the bowls
we ate my ice-cream cake from
on a week+my birthday
(+1 day, technically)

it was
safe
to do it
now

life at times turns to a museum
and then back to walking through dimensions
glass-free

stuck
to a bit of berry
a hair
brown
semi-curly

i glided it away
and held it to
white backdrop
studying the length

sometimes
i can't tell the difference
between you and me




a second occurence

no.79


6/25/15, 10:05 PM
Pacific Daylight Time

Monday, September 28, 2015

day one : i lose so many earrings with you

today, this morning,
i flipped the mattress
back up
to how it was
before
you
pulled it down, repositioned the pillows, and spread out the sakura duvet over
you
one less sweatshirt
than before i left the room

i hadn't been able to move it

today, reinvigorated
a day appropriated for action and not questions
for walking and not surveying

with

h o p e

a lacking, coming-and-going, foraflicker-expanding-and-everagain-contracting for three, now, by now, four months

h o p e

i cannot quite believe it
yet
i keep moving
legs going
to make sure i can do all i want
is this
stamina? inertia? i feel 12 again

smart?
determined?
strong?

what a powerful idea,
hope.

∼
as i
rearranged
my atlas bedding
smoothed out creases
we made
as the mattress dug down -
over the continents -
as you plunged into me -
as i grasped hold of you -
my unicorn earring
the cuff
toppled onto your sleeping bag
covering my bedroom floor

you had noted my ear
after tuffles in duvet and sheets
noticing it had gone missing
one gold unicorn left
in my right ear
i knew
as you stared
that it had fallen away
i didn't care
just kept my eyes
on you
my memory
writing miles a minute


saisho, i suppose it's too cheeky to call yesterday day one