the thirty-seventh day

i am nervous
bubbly
poofy

want to settle

last three calls with you
you've been a surface happy bee

there is a buzz
back and forth in my head




i have wanted to stop and calm and think and write to you and run and figure it all out
but first

i can sing to you
to remember, to remember
to play

to take your time
it'll be ok
be real, be you
sing
talk

communicate
to him