day two hundred nine : this isn't my first spring training seminar

ice-breakers start off the meeting
groups of four
karl, nizar, sergio and me
jason joins us anyway

you don't know these people
they don't know you
there's nothing liberating in that
like there was 2,3,5 years ago

it's just there.

i pick 1 and 4 out of the cup
talk about something i learned last week
something i did yesterday
it is simple enough

i think about it hours later
realize
i didn't struggle to come up with anything
i didn't hesitate
i just jabbered

there is inertia.  there was something done.
this... simple task would have been impossible in january.

i talk about 4 and then 1
smile and inform
answer questions, make a connection, bond
guess the ice-breaker worked?

tonight, some 24 hours later
i know
i'm strong

easy things are becoming easy again
and because statements like that are terrifying
i add a
sometimes