day two hundred and fifty-one : reply part ii

when i moved to fukui

i was tired of introducing myself

so i lied to everyone about everything

because the story of me was quite old

it kept it exciting

changing it all

when i moved to kitakyushu

i was tired of introducing myself

so i didn't talk

others were ok

they talked

i guess 

sergio knows about you

even before stuff on my wall

he saw me drawing in notebooks on trains to meetings

me studying my phone

a picture somewhere
getting quiet at certain moments

i never told mari a thing

haven't been with much for her to take notice, either

1, 2, 3, 4 a.m. we lie on my pink couch
she talks of her friends, boys, family, dreams, work
i listen
maybe i assist
i am always sleepy. my eyelids flutter.

"i envy you."

"you definitely shouldn't, mari."

"but you are so lucky."

we sip dirty chai.

「いいな～。カシちゃんのアパートを好きよ。

i can... feel the love you have for him.

いい気持ち。」

i don't talk.