I am not tied to anything
my body is in the best shape it's been since junior high
I am not tied to anything

my apartment is clean and organized and mine
I don't worry about messes or eyes or annoyance
I am not tied to anything

when I was in high school
he wrote love on my arms
to celebrate the day
he said
stop being so sad, jeez

I am not tied to anything
in the darkest
I know
I am so sad. I try to combat with positive thinking.

I am not tied to anything.

I remember being seven
being so mischievous
after parents closed the door
jump back out of bed to look out the window
make wish on the brightest star

I am not tied to anything
I am not tied to anything

every step I've taken
was wrong

.

I remember being seven
I remember feeling like
I was not tied to anyone but God
even my family

I felt it was me and the world
me and the sky and stars
we were playing with each other

and I didn't worry about anyone else's mind, ideas, opinions

only I really mattered
I wasn't tied to anything

why
now
does it hurt
so much