he asked my how my day went
i was already smiling
great. so great. such a nice day.
i am happy
get distracted. was making dinner
housemate 3 hours
wine and speaking
listening
i thought
back of head
when i realized what was happening
where is thomas?
i am okay.
does that mean i don't really care about him?
(i know this is illogical)
(doesn't stop the feeling from coming)
and i try to be okay with the me that is being okay with (just) me
and i forget again and it goes out of my head cause i am
immersed, involved, part of the discussion
later
preparing for bed
opening laptop
to complete the poesy for today
i feel heartsad
i wasn't more heartsad today
know it doesn't quite make sense
do not reprimand
decide to think about tomorrow
why i think okay is not okay
what is independence
what is need/love/you and me
i will figure it out
tomorrow
heart you
night
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