different moments today

i thought could be

the contents of the day's poesy

but then i went downstairs 

to refill my tea

before writing this

saw the new kaya i bought

spooned some on a piece of soda bread with an "eat me" post it on top

dribbled some tahini over

for an adult pb&j

took a bite

and froze

first

the taste 

brings in cold crisp early winter

me in my soft jeggings
you had tried on sans underwear
cold crips early winter

but a warmth on my body from

touching it to yours

raisins

i didn't like

in hearty bread

but somehow tasted nice with the drizzle

a plate

full

four pieces of toast 

cut into square pieces 

to be shared 

by you and me

sitting half in 

the sheets 

of your bed

i exhale, unfreeze

second

the ache

it is not now

stomach closes,

despair close

third

inhale

recovery? you? the strong part of my spirit? goodness? something soothes my heart

i send love to you

continue to chew

continue to breathe

fourth

write

neck burns

wait

fifth

continue to type