2 4 3

surely i can break once every 6 months
if it doesn't last more than 6 days?
i've got about two hours left then.
not "normal"
but
that is incredible progress
for me

<jump>
i made a list of rules to live by
when i was in japan
i followed them all
i can be proud of that.

my safety net included leah, kathleen, kevin
second set iko, elaine,
third eduardo, judy, virginia

i only had to go to 1.5

i did message you
i did connect with you
but it was not uncontrollable
it was not panicked crying or gasping for air
or please stay please i'm bad
i can be proud of that
</jump>

when i woke up i saw my plants had grown.
even more.
they keep going





i am sorry
the hardship
was heard by you too
that-
i could have not done.
something to improve
i am not proud of that