day two hundred and thirty-one : shimonoseki

in a classroom 
on another island
far away 
from the alcove
i
sometimes
call mine

curled into me
my stomach aches
i am surprised
w h y

i cradle your jacket
my jacket?
my pre-birthday jacket
under my head
along with 
the purple scarf
jimmy left behind

i was here
in february

oh. 

this is how i felt.

this is how curled up i was
three months 
ago