day two hundred and who knows this is all a lot of days

i look through
iyengar
to find something
scrolling down
i am transported
to my room
in renmore
i left it five months ago today

you are scrolling down
iyengar
describing the progression
"then... it's all binding here-"
i can hear your voice
i can hear
you
it is a shadow
as much as i try to
amplify the crisps and clisps of your mouth-

you are right there
here
you are right next to me
i am thankful for this book
for you explaining parts
for your voice of sweet amusement
but more
always more than the thing
thankful you are
right next to me