day three hundred and seventeen : because i have died, i wake

i said i'd go to sleep at 2 am

i got to bed by four

double workout leads to

straight

brown

nothing

then

a nightmare

you

i die

nothing

then i feel my heart beating oh so quickly

third fastest of my life

because i have died, i wake

i command my heart to slow

i begin ro understand i am alive, i was dreaming

stare at nothing

heart. please. slow.

somehow i know

something has happened

here, in real life

i find my phone under my neck

and there is an email from you

but it is nothing like
my nightmare.

despite my death
the content
the rapid-beat scare
... i got to see you