II xxxii i will heal you and not me, okay? nonono ahhhh a title in progress

i am in a state of mess and ask a favour from you

oh

you are in another realm

automatically, i notice

i am determined, able, and focused

let's get him out of there!

how to encourage? what would aid?

i am so optimistic of what can be solved and accomplished

so that you are not feeling that way

wait a minute

i needed someone to be sad? to be better?

i needed someone to be sick? to feel healthy?

i needed someone i recognized i loved to need help? instead of me?

oh no, i think

here is something else

to work through

i hope you are okay

(spend that hope on you! you shift focus...?)

(confused when feelings are "wrong" but there... and i do care but maybe i don't care about me enough or don't want to think about me or feel trapped in me but don't see others as trapped or- )

i hope we are okay